With love, Jane.

Friday, 03 July 2009

  • Australia so far

    At this point of time, I am at a friend's place in Melburne and have posibly infected the whole house with my cough and sore throat. But don't worry guys, the fever has not come and I am pretty sure it's not swine flu. :)

    I'm just here to say that I have been having LOADS of fun! :D :D I am so filled with food every day, all the time so if you noticed that I have gained a couple of pounds, do me a favour and don't say anything. :( BUT I'm hoping with the weight gain, I will finally get the butt I've been wanting.

    Apart from drama here and there, I can say that I'm enjoying myself. :) Which is good of course.

     

     

    However, I miss my big bed back at home. :(

     

    current mood: Contented

Sunday, 14 June 2009

  • Seven Days

    Yesterday I had this dream. That I was in the airport waiting for Kai to pick me up. It was cold but I was only wearing a layer of clothes. I don't remember carrying a luggage bag, I just stood at the bus stop waiting... And then he came! I woke up smiling, literally. I have not had those kind of dreams when I wake up smiling in a long time. But after that, I craved for dim sum.

    In seven days' time, I'm gonna be able to finally see that funny, annoying face of his. FINALLY! The wait this semester didn't feel bad at all. At least half of it wasn't bad at all la. Maybe because we finally made use of Skype and our webcams. Made waiting a whole lot easier. :)

    And also maybe because we've been so busy with other things, too. It feels like I've been working since that Nike project. And I have, actually. But it feels good that I'm finally free. This last week I'm gonna be prepping myself up for the trip. Yay!

    My dad has been pestering me to postpone my trip due to the swine flu. But of course, I haven't and I will still go no matter what. Unless they stop flying their planes out lar, which will never happen so... Yes. I will go and be with my annoying boyfriend.

    I've started packing up my bag early next week. I love packing! It makes the trip feel closer. My bags almost filled to the brim already. I've brought things to leave there so that when I come back the next time to study, I can worry about other things. :) And it will be like having two weight limits, which is very useful.

    Seven more days love! Can you feel it?


    current mood: EXCITED

Sunday, 24 May 2009

  • OH.MY.GOODNESS!

    I am almost hyperventilating right now. I just got a YES from my parents to study in Sydney!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    I'm speechless. I thought it would be really difficult to convince them to allow me to study since our financial situation is never really stable.

    But Gos blessed me in so many, many, many, MANY ways, I'm really just... In awe! This past month has been overflowing with blessings, one after another. And I'm entirely grateful!

    I called the boyfriend in a flurry of excitement, so excited I almost spat into the phone a couple of times, trying to string a proper sentence. I was in that much of a shock.

    Everything I had hoped and prayed for is finally falling into place! And this is the BEST news of all because I have dreamed of going over. To be with Kai and also to stay in a place that I absolutely fell in love with!

    I'm planning to bring Jade over too, if I can fork out enough. It would be a great thing for her because she'll see what Australia is all about. Just like I did, last year.

    I promised to go to Church every week when I'm there. And be the best student that I can be. The university may be small, but I'm looking for a transfer whenever possible to one of the bigger universities, maybe in my third year?

    I can't wait to talk to the boyfriend about this! This is absolutely great news that we have been hoping and hoping for! I'm sorry if I sound super braggy but this is trying to be modest already. -_-" I can't sound less excited even if you held a gun to my head.

    I WILL BE GOING TO AUSTRALIA!!!


    current mood: YAY!!!

Thursday, 21 May 2009

  • Where is the love?

    Today I read a piece of news that involved a family, torn because of one man high on drugs.

    This man robbed the house of a Malay family, and murdered a wife, a youngest son and a maid. All for one laptop. He was caught while trying to flee the scene.

    How can there be people who have no feelings whatsoever when they're committing a crime? And not just any crime, murder. Murder is taking away people's lives - and all of the times, very, very cruelly. And for that family, it would mean the loss of a wife, a mother of three other kids, a son, a brother and a family friend. It meant the loss of two daughters and one grandchild.

    How can there be no compassion? What is it that ran through the thoughts of that man? How can he have the courage and heart to slash and butcher half a family?

    Many people have died because of a reckless move by another. Two pregnant women were killed the week before last. Because of two men, four people murdered. Two families hurt.

    I can never see how far desperation would take me. What I would do if I was desperate enough... And until I do I guess I will never know what leads these people to kill, to steal, to rob, to threaten... Because from what I see, there will be other ways.

    I feel sorry for these people. :( Because they didn't deserve what happened to them. I wish people could see that although my opinions don't matter, if someone else thinks the same we could make a difference. However small, at least it will be a change.


    current mood: Bitter

Tuesday, 19 May 2009

  • Here and There

    Oh boy, I have not seen the shadow of this blog for a LONG time! I guess it's because I'm already writing in the office so much that I get lazy to update this blog. There have been many mornings, during my short walks from the LRT station to my office, when I weaved the perfect blog entry in my head on the people I see in the train, the things I think of, my feelings on that particular day... But I never got around to actually pen my thoughts down and so they get lost on the way.

    But today, when I finally got around to logging into my Xanga account, I don't have anything particular to write about. I think I shall update a little on what has been happening!

    1. Work
    Nothing much to say here, except that I have decided to extend my internship until just before I leave for Australia. I'm so sorry to the people that I have promised to do "legendary" things with! I will make it up to you!

    2. Boyfriend
    Ah, I tell you I can go on and on about this one. This month everything has been really good. Yes, there are still the petty squabbles over the dresses I want to wear, and my sugar intake and things like that but he really has been such a sweetheart lately! I think I have to say thank you to a certain book... And with the trip coming up so soon, we're getting excited about what we want to do and the traveling around Australia! We're even going to go camping and I might join him in that marathon... It's only 4 and a half weeks away and I've already made a list of what to bring and buy...

    3. Savings
    My savings for the trip is right on track! And I'm hoping that with the extra month of work, I might be able to have extra...

    4. Other stuff
    My dad bought me a new camera. It's not expensive, and it's quite an old model but I'm glad I have my own now and I don't have to fight for it with the Sister Jade... -_-" She hogs it like mad. Pfft. But now I have to persuade myself to bring it everywhere I go because I don't usually whip out my cam and camwhore with friends. And that's quite sad 'cos so many memories are lost... But you see, I'm scared that my bag might get snatched because the world is just so twisted right now. That's a whole blog post for a different time. There are SO MANY things that I have to say about the stupid people around who steals and robs on the expense of other people's lives.
    ***
    And I saw this gorgeous dress in Forever 21 and am still contemplating on buying it! Ok, fine it's not gorgeous, it's actually very simple. A maxi, bright orange dress. I tried it on when I was shopping with Leon and it fitted perfectly!!! I am fretting on where I will wear it to though, cos you can't exactly wear a bright orange maxi dress anywhere... Kai says he will make an occasion to wear it. Hee. So I just might...

    ***

    I have a box of Rocky in my bag and it's making me happy. And you know what else makes me happy?
    COCONUT JELLY!
    I tell you, it's the best thing everrrrr okay! OOSH. And I just realised that I am actually quite weird when it comes to stepping into bookshops and confectionery stores. I get this excited feeling bubbling in me and I will not feel good if I don't walk out buying a brand new pen or book or a bar of chocolate (Or a box of Rocky). Who cares if I don't write anymore? That shiny new pen was calling out to me! Who cares if I'm trying to control my sugar intake? That packet of snack practically jumped into my arms!

    ***

    I bought this small sized canvas and am very excited to start painting something to brighten the boyfriend's room. Something bright-coloured... I just need the time to sit down and start doodling.


    Alright, this has been a pretty long update. Not like any of you read. :( But yes. Updates!



    current mood: EXCITED

Saturday, 25 April 2009

  • 'Cos it's a WEEKEND!!!

    Mmmn, guavaaaa...

    I am SO glad that it's a Saturday! I get excited on Fridays, sending excited SMS-es filled with love to the boyfriend and he'll go "YAY! Why so excited?" Haha.

    "'Cos it's a FRIDAY!!!" And the start of the weekend.

    Since I've been working, I've pretty much transformed into a lifeless bat. There are the yum cha sessions and dinners and whatnots with friends, but after that I just collapse onto my bed and sleep. If I'm not out, I'm asleep before 11pm. Tell me la. Haih.

    Anyway, I'm sooooo excited for this time's Australia trip! 'Cos unlike the last time when I HOPED to go to Melbourne, this time we're confirmed going to Melbourne! Amd if we can stretch our money a bit further, maybe Brisbane! :D Yay Yay Yay Yay!

    So now, I'm looking online to places to go in Melbourne, because I am pretty sure Kai won't think of anything and we'll just waste precious time there. -_-" We're only going to be there for a week, and I really hope I get to see Ming before she goes home.

    It's only 8 more weeks till I leave! Omgoodness! My savings are pretty alright. :) I forgot my Ticker pin number so I can't update that thing, lol. Ah well.

    Have to go do research on Melbourne hotspots now!
    "Places to go in Melbourne" CLICK!




    current mood:

Monday, 20 April 2009

  • *insert curse word here*

    If I was a person who curses, I would use all the curse words right here. In all different languages. Because you have NO idea what it's like to be so confused. Never have I been so frustrated in my whole life.

    Right now I just want to make things better la ok! Gimme a break, can? I want everything to go back to how they used to be. It's that simple and I don't believe I can't do it.

    current mood: ??? confused

Sunday, 12 April 2009

  • What-ifs, be GONE

    There are too many "what-ifs" in everything. And I dislike it. I find that thinking about the "what-ifs" doesn't get you anywhere and I learnt that the hard way. Throughout my relationship I find that the "what-ifs" tend to spoil moods, poison thoughts... No matter how we plan and plan, things aren't necessarily going to go our way. And that's because God has bigger plans for us.

    My relationship with Kai has been a bit rocky lately and it sucks. But we're pulling through and I realise I have so much to learn!

    And one of them lessons is throwing all the silly little "what-ifs" away.

    What if he cheats?
    What if I cheat?
    What if we don't last?
    What if we do?


    They all go into the dustbin. There's no point thinking about them. No point. Only time will tell if we're meant for each other. And if we're not... Then, bring on the heartbreak!



    Oh. But we're fine now. :) And today, we "celebrate" our 3 years 7 month anniversary. Can you believe that? Almost four years! And I still love you. :)



    current mood: contented

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